It's weird to me that I've felt random waves of sadness when I'm down here in Brooklyn. Gauzy, as if the veil has been peeled back. You need to ask your friend something but you forgot your cell phone, then one minute later she walks around the corner and you two go get a sandwich. Who knew she was even back in town. (today)
You sit on someone's brownstone's steps with another friend just before midnight and you explain why, regardless of the awkwardness, you are grateful for this thing anyway and then it walks down the street. (some weekend) (more awkwardness!)
The"psychic flu": this means you just catch someone else's vibes. It happens to me so much more in the city. I've been trying to figure out why I feel weird and I realize I have nothing to be sad about. Whoever in my loop of hearts is sad and I am picking this up from you my friend, just call me and it will go away.
Actually everything is dripping in gorgeousness and happy times here: I have had three couples today checking out my place to sublet and they are the most amazing beautiful beings--we chatted and chatted and it was so warm and fun and I love being around relationships that lift everyone up, three separate couples who all felt so vibrant. Connected, funny, sweet, just adorable. It feels like an abundance of good vibes, and I just love that, because you know if it's true that what you're getting back is what you're putting out, I am doing great today with this crew. I just felt so happy and on the right track.
I kept telling this one that they could sorta wall off a certain space if they needed more room--their kids will be here for a few days--and they were like, oh we won't need that. Oh that's okay. Oh we'll just all be in the living room together.
Oh, that's just me and my writerly cretin ways and my weird (yet amazing! hi guys!) but weird wasp family that needs all that "alone time" to "work."
I know I should do some kind of meditation to get rid of whoever's bummed out cloud just flew over my head, but I think I will just go for a short walk and get a glass of bourbon. So perfect. Astringent! Yes, astringent! You can't really randomly do that upstate as a 15 minute errand at midnight. THAT is why we pay this rent! Okay, that's why--now I know. Well, I can't really do it in the same way upstate at least, where I know I'll run into someone to have a nice soothing chat with.
Whoever is so sad: cheer up, everything is really going to be okay. That's how it works. You're more than enough. You don't really even need to do anything, just be. You have all you need. You'll do the right thing. Clouds will part. I know it's true, without a doubt.
In more amusing and cheerful news, thank you Jessica for sending along this. Very very funny and you know I am sure it is depressing to a lot of people but it cracks me up. As Tori has recently said:Do this long enough you get a taste for it.
Not everyone wants to read a Jesus da Vinci Gossip Girl Geographical Location X Diet Book for your Pets. I have done this long enough now, I do in fact have a taste for it. Delicious. Astringent. But also kind of juicy.